Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Ode for my CIP Students - March 28, 2008





If I was one thing, I’d be a candle

Lighting the way so you can handle

Your life easier without woes

Not having to fight with your foes.





I’d help keep you from stumbling over


Things blocking your path to an open door.

If I light your path, life is easier,

Even strong winds, my light will not deter.

No matter what, I’m here for you

To cheer you up when you are blue.



Do not fret when times get tough,

If things look down or kind of rough.

Just remember, I’m always here,

In your heart, close and near.

I will help you out in every way,

Happiness and love in your heart will stay.




Don’t blow me out, that’s one request


Unless it’s me you do detest.


I do not try to hurt anyone


That isn’t good or any fun.




But one day you may leave me behind

You may no longer need my light to shine.

If that day comes, go on your way

And I will hope to see you again one day.






If one day, I don’t appear,

Do not worry, do not fear

I may be gone, but in your heart


The light I gave you did not depart.




It will be there forever and a day, To always bring happiness and light your way.
Farewell for now, I’m needed elsewhere,. If your path grows dark, in your heart, I’m there.
So I’m really not gone, just not seen, I would not leave, I’m not that mean.

Only one simple request that I must say, Please, never forget those who lit your way.

O.B.B.

Mam Batz - March 28, 2008


Not In Her Storm by Sauni

I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rain
And it is always I fight for the welcome change
When it rains it pours on this heart of mine
So, I take the storms I feel to her each time.

But I know she has lived under her own pouring rain
Yet under her water her heart still doesn’t change
She can walk away from what hangs overhead
And, not in her storm, are words left unsaid.

Not in her storm have I ever felt alone
Her storm ends, so I, may find my way home
It’s for me that she pushes away her own rain
So, that I may find comfort in calling her name.

She lives in this world for the sake of another’s heart
God, how she eases the miles when worlds apart
And she never wanders when your world falls through
Not ever in her storm would she do this to you.

She has wings that I know not only I can see
Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me
It’s the way that the eyes can surely view
How her heart’s written so clearly in what an angel can do.

Not in her storm is her work ever done
And even in her storm she hands me the sun
When her world is dark - I always have light
And now how I hold the new color of night.

She takes then she gives to an unhappy face
So that many can find an awesome place
I have been able to love her more every day
And with her hand in mine the clouds roll away.

Not in any storm that I will ever live beneath
Could ever change what I hold here inside of me
Not in any of her storms have I lost my angels touch
To that angel out there, I love her so much.

How it Used to be


Blog posted with the title: Para kay Bunso, March 28, 2008

Quiet Emotions by Judy Burnette

I always wanted more from you
than you were willing to give;
So now we’ve gone our separate ways
each with different lives to live.

The bond will always be there
the friendship always intact;
But the time for us has come and gone
and the pages of time, you can’t turn back.

I will always be a friend to you
and wonder how you are;
The smiles and laughter I will remember
and our fights have become painless scars.

Sometimes on those busy days
when you’ve a thousand things to do;
Please let me glide slowly through your mind
and spend some time with you.

In that quiet moment
when you’re surprised to find me there;
Just remember even with the distance between us
I am still someone who cares.

*****

Emotional? oo naman...

I was a good friend and a friend til the end...
until words that are not nice...

The words have no effect now...

For I don't care for him that much...

Lahat pala ng bagay, kung natutunan mo dati,
pede mo ding makalimutan lalo na kung nasaktan ka

Kapag kaibigan ko, lalo na't pinag-aaksayahan ng oras
na isulat...
isipin mo, importante ka,

pero looking back, I never regret...
kung ano man ang ipinakita ko,
that was me - your friend...

and kung ano man ang nasabi mo - that is you - PAGKATAO mo...

and sad to say...hindi match ang aura mo sa aura ko.

Kung ang tawag sa babaeng hindi iniisip ang sinasabi nya,
ay taklesa...
ano kaya ang tawag sa gaya mo?

Hindi po ako galit...
natatawa lang na nai-associate kita sa tulang ito...

sadyang hindi ka perpekto, gaya ng iniisip mo...

Boodle Fight - April 19, 2008




what is boodle fight?

boodle fight is a tradition that shows camaraderie and non-inhibition












it promotes friendship and flexibility

it says so much about your character













it brings you closer together and makes you cry when goodbyes are inevitable

boodle fight is the union of every character in one table





it represents oneness and friendship



it brings out your affection



it makes hating your friends difficult













it also makes them hard to forget

actually, you can never forget them once you do this with them…





The Sweetest Things - April 19, 2008


1. walked with me in the middle of a dark road at 2 am

2. covered my head when it started to rain

3. brought pizza

4. sent fishes for lunch and dinner (kahit na badtrip ako kasi mahirap linisan)

5. brought me chocolate

6. lame reason to visit with the whole gang last feb. 14

7. early morning fetch

8. fetched trike for me

9. made coffee

10. coke (habang katext mo sya at hindi mo sya tanaw)

11. lunch (na natataranta syang isandok)

12. 1 jacket, 2 bullcaps, 1 knife

13. hand tequila shots

14. nag-isip ng reasons (na puro lame) para makasama lang ako

15. blushes when being teased

writing it…i might need it someday to curb my anger…

Untitled - April 17, 2008


i am tired…

at the end of the day, you noticed that you did not check who sent you messages on your mobile phone…

and so you did check, looking, scrolling…

trying to pray that the persons you remember during the time that you were not busy, will now be able to remember you…

hoping that those people will somehow tell you indirectly that "hey, you crossed my mind today…"

you feel significant when someone does something for you not because he has to, but because he WANTS to…

i’ve been keeping quiet for the past few days

i was trying to see who would remember…

who would feel the absence of my name on their inbox

(sigh)…

Grass - April 14, 2008


Kung hahayaan nga namang tumubo ang mga talahib, isa lang ang kahulugan nito: ni isa sa magkaibigan, walang nag-aalaga.

Darating ang panahon na hindi na madadaanan o hindi na makikilala pa ang lugar dahil sa taas ng talahib…o di kaya, baka hindi na sila magkakilanlan sa taas ng mga damo…

Naalala ko ang pagtatabas ng damo (the beautification project a.k.a. prettyfication project na ginawa namin alongside the road leading to Bucana)…

Sana lang, wag nating idamay ang mga magagandang pangyayari ng nakaraan (huwaaatt!!!!)

Whattamean is, wag nating idamay sa galit natin ang mga masasayang nangyari. Yung pagtatawanana dati, iba yun. Kung galit ka ngayon, wag mong idamay yung mga ibinigay at ginawa niya para sa iyo noon.

Pinagsisihan ko dati ang pagpunit ng loveletter…kasi nagalit ako. Pinunit ko na, isinauli ko pa. Pinagsisihan ko yun.

Hindi nga naman kasama yun sa galit ko. Yung mga bagay na pinaglaanan mo ng panahon at pagmamahal, wag mo itapon.

Ang galit, nawawala, pero ang sakit na dulot ng salita at gawa mo, ang magpapagaling dun ay yung mga masasayang alaala ninyong magkaibigan…

Mainipin Daw -April 10, 2008


Nakausap ko si "Pula" kahapon.

Na-touch ako, kasi nakikinig sya…pero pinapagalitan niya ako.

Nag-iisip na naman daw ako.

Nalulungkot.

Dapat daw pag kakausapin ko daw siya, puro masasayang usapin lang.

Naluha ako nung nagsimula na niya akong pangaralan sa tigas ng ulo ko.
(dala na din siguro ng 5 shot ng "Lola")

Mainipin daw kasi ako at wala akong ginawa kundi sungitan siya pag nakikita ko.

Eh, kasi naman, nababasa niya ang nasa isip ko.

Naninindak daw ako.

Lambing ko na kaya yun.

(sigh)

Pahinga.

Kaibigang Pula, wag kang mag-alala. Masaya ako at hindi nagsisisi sa mga ginawa at desisyon ko.

Wala din namang dapat panghinayangan dahil naging masaya ako.

Kaibigang pula, wag kang magagalit at sisigaw na naman ako ng "NEXT!"

Bwahar! har! har!

Realizations - April 10, 2008


The PLM CN held its written battery examination yesterday around 9:00 in the morning. Due to the hot weather perhaps, the big transformer near the school short circuited creating a blackout.

The examination needs to be finished. Windows were opened, "PAMAYPAYS" were brought out and take note…CANDLES were lit, given to each student just to finish the written examination. ALL bear the dimness and heat (the candles add up to the heat of the room). Everything went well.

Just today, as I recount what transpired yesterday, I said to myself, God has his way of communicating with me…

and HE said: "Pasaway kong anak… PAG GUSTO MO TALAGA, MAY PARAAN, PAG AYAW MO, MARAMING DAHILAN…"

at "DELAYING TACTICS" always works but it should not work for you.

Ang galing…now I know. So ang sabi ko kay Lord, "NEXT!!!"

Bad Trip - May 10, 2008


naranasan mo na ba yung kung kelan nagtitipid ka, e parang nananadya ang panahon at gusto ka pa atang gumastos ng malaki?

Bad trip talaga…

Tinaype ko na sa computer ko…s

a computer kong pre-historic…

na kung gusto mong mag file transfer ay gagamit ka ng "floppy diskette"

"ano kamo?" floppy. oo floppy. gumagamit ako ng floppy diskette sa panahon ng usb.

ang sistema, kinarir mo na nga ang analysis ng bawat table sa #@*% Community diagnosis na yun e ayaw niya mag-open,
dahil itatransfer mo na nga sa usb or ise-send man lang sa e-mail mo para mastore…

ang saya…

pero sabi nga, kung may plan A, dapat may plan B.

ano ang plan B? bibili ng isang ream ng bond paper sa national at maghahanap ng mahihiraman ng typewriter…

kapag wala, plan C.

ano ang plan C? HANDWRITTEN…

oo, HANDWRITTEN!

Imagine, ipepresent ko sa manila health, handwritten, idedefense…

manila health will not forget me.

he CI who handwrote the whole CDX, including the tables and charts… (kawawa ba?)

hindi naman…this is life…

thinking about it, we should always be ready with solutions for what might happen in our life…

baka hindi dumating ang hinihintay natin, baka umulan, baka maligaw tayo sa daan, baka…iwan ka din…

Lord, thanks for the gift of foresight…

arriba kamay! isulat!

(buti na lang uso ang ballpen at sign pen…imagine kung ang CDX ay ginawa sa panahon ni Rizal na pluma ang ginagamit…ewan ko na…)

M.B., J.B. - June 27, 2008


they said, dreams are mirrors of the soul…

for two consecutive days, i slept late

i dreamed…

i went to a place, i saw two familiar persons riding their motorbikes…

this time, i was wondering why i was wearing house clothes walking the street (which i don’t even recognize)

the two persons were M.B. and J.A.

puzzled, J.A. approached me. M.B. just spared a glance and rode away.

It was J.A. who was so excited to ask how i was doing…

last night, i dreamt that i am delivering my lecture to my students
when all of a sudden, M.B. came.

I don’t know why.

Maybe, i miss their company?
and I just keep on ignoring that fact by burying myself with tons of work?

I miss the friends I gained in that place…

But I want to hear from them that they miss me too.
especially the brother i found and "lost"? and hope to regain one of these days…

looking back, i am grateful that i grabbed the opportunity to get to know
these people…

and in-between coffee and smoke and my endless lecture-making,
once in a while, i stop and think about them
and wonder what they are doing…

do they miss me?
will i ever get to see them and talk and laugh with them? will they make some effort to see me, too?
do they share the same sentiments i have for them?

then, i stop and get my 5th cup of cold coffee
and pour my energies for the lecture that i need to deliver the next day
knowing that someday all my questions for these treasured people
will soon be answered…

=(

Green-eyed Monster - June 29, 2008


sabi niya: "hindi ko alam kung bakit ka ganyan…"

sabi mo: "EWAN!!!!"

sabi niya: "ano bang problema mo?"

sabi mo: "tingnan mo ang mobile phone mo. may messages ka ba galing sa akin?"

sabi nya: "wala"

sabi mo: "o wala, pareho pala tayo, wala din AKO ni isang message galing SA IYO for months…

at MAY GANA KA PANG MAGTANONG KUNG ANONG PROBLEMA? TAO KA BA?"


sabi niya: "e busy ako eh…alam mo naman yun di ba?"


sabi mo: "SAPAKAN NA LANG TAYO....

sabi mo pa: "TARA!!!! ONE TIME LANG! SAPAKAN NA LANG!

Blind Item Numero Uno - June 30, 2008


Ola, senyorita at senyorito!

ang blind item na ito ay katuwaan lang at walang intensyon na makasakit nang damdamin ng nilalang na pinatutungkulan ng artikulong ito.

eto na, magsimula na tayo….

sino ang boylet number one na super friends pa din ng reyna ng mga zaido…kahit wala na ang reyna sa cavite?

napapabalitang in good terms ang dalawang ito at kahit na nagfilingera ang dalawang ito, ay still, they are friends ever!

ang reyna ng mga zaido ay reyna na na kanayunan ng paaralang naghatid ng karangalan kay zandra, na kamakailan ay syang dahilan din ng bundok-bundok na trabaho ng nabanggit na reyna…


balikan natin ang issue…

ang reyna at ang friendship nyang filingero ay still the best of friends ever….

naintriga, binantaan at ngayon nga ay friendship pa din sila kahit madami nang nangyari….(na matutunghayan sa mga susunod na blind items pa)

eto pa mga ate at kuya!!!!! ang superfriends ng reyna ay dating pinagselosan diumano ng boylet number 3 ng reyna…. (hmmmm) at….


walang kamalay-malay ang reyna na alam pala ng boylet number 3 ang mga usap-usapan noon tungkol sa boylet number 1 at reyna…. (un na nga mga kapartido….sya na nga!)


Sayang ang lovestory ng boylet number 1 at ng reyna, dahil diumano, ay nag-may "i dedicate this message" pa daw ang reyna sa isang pagtitipon na ginawa sa isang okasyon na dinaluhan ng maraming estudyama!!!! pero syempre anonymous ang drama ng reyna (hindi ba’t lagei naman????)


super like na sana ang boylet number one dahil nasa tamang idad ito at papalicious ang katawan….(huuuuwaaaaaaaaaaaaat?????) braso pa lang ay pwede na daw iulam…..ngiti daw ay pwede nang pangtanggal ng umay sa adobong baboy na ulam mo kaninang tanghali….

o di ba, panalo ang profile ni boylet number 1?

getching mo na ba kung sino siya?

haaay….kapag hindi pa ay magtanong ka sa lalaking nakatayo sa may poste ng meralco…may dala siyang banderang pula kaya hindi ka magkakamali ng pagtatanungan…

hanggang sa muli kong lunchbreak mga kapatid at kaututang dila….

sa susunod ay mas masarap na huntahan at kwentong walang kakwenta-kwenta ang aking ihahatid sa inyo…. at siyempre ang balita ay umiinog, umiikot, nag-rerevolve sa reyna na zaido na ngayon ay reyna ng kanayunan sa dating paaralan ni zandra.


ola!!!!

New Beginnings - November 21, 2007


Nakakamiss ang dating samahan…
pero sa kabilang banda…
nakakapagod din ang pakikisama sa kanila…
minsan kasi, masyado silang naging komportable sa pagkatao mo, nalimutan nilang kaibigan ka nila…

ganunpaman…eto…bagong kaibigan…
dating mga kasama…
iba lang ang lugar…
mas suportado ang trabaho, kaunti ang politika…

gaano man kaliit ang boses mo,
nakikinig ang superior mo…
napakasarap na simula…
sana’y magtuloy-tuloy na…

ang sabi ng dati kong kakilala:
"dati na nila ginagawa sa yo yan…ngayon lang naging garapal."
hindi bale, basta, maraming salamat sa pagsubok…
masarap anihin ang bunga ng mabuting pakikisama….

To a Friend Named Danielle Estacio - October 4, 2007


You were never just a student…
you are someone who wants to be there
but you can’t
due to some circumstances that are beyond your control…
and i understand that…

mahirap mag-isa ulet pag nasanay ka na may kasama ka…

so, I am starting to learn again.
Sorry if i’d been too quiet.
one day, we will see each other,
and i will be smiling again…

don’t worry…

i will soon be free from this hell hole…

Happiness - October 8, 2007


Do the people inside your office who trods on your dignity,

able to sleep at night?

I doubt it.

Do they find happiness in looking and maximizing on other people’s faults....

making a big name out of pinning down a person?

Is that what most of your colleagues do

to climb up to their wall of success?

Putting a good man down has a lot of consequences…

that is...

if ever you can put him down…

To A Lady Named Elle Estacio - October 14, 2007


some of the friends I thought I had in that place evades me…
even the reason escapes me…
at one point i tried to find out why…
but i guess, the only reason is that…
I am me.

nakakasama ng loob isipin na dahil wala nang silbi ang isang tao,
kakalimutan mo nang kakilala mo siya.
makasabay mo sa jeep, sa pagkain,
hindi kayo magkakilala.
wag na lang nating tingnan sa ganitong aspeto
dahil walang kwentang pag-aksayahan ng panahon isipin…

hindi sila mawawala, ako ang aalis…
pero hindi ibig sabihin ng pag-alis ko ay hindi na kami magkikita.
magkikita kami kaming lahat…
at ako ang may hawak sa isang bagay na pinaka-aasam-asam nila.
itaga mo sa bato… (tapos sigaw ka ng Darna!)

"be careful on whose toes you step on today…
it may be connected to the feet that will kick your ass tomorrow."

Termites (September 6, 2007)


naranasan mo na ba yung ok ka n,

nananahimik na ang mundo mo,

tanggap mo na sa sarili mo
na ang mga kaibigan na lang at
ilang mga platonic mong relationships
ay enough para makapagpasaya sa iyo?

tapos.....BLAGAG!eto na naman…

wala kasing kadala-dala ang puso mo e,
sumubok ka na naman…tapos…eto ka na naman
so eto na ang mga anay
na unti-unting pumapatay sa nararamdaman mo para sa taong yun…

sabi ko kay lord…
"ako ba talaga, dapat eh bato na lang?
dapat takpan ko na ang magkabilang mata at tenga ko
para hindi na tayo paulet-ulet na natatakot, nasasaktan, sumusugal?

Lord naman….magpapasko na!!! aba e, wag mo naman akong kalimutan…"

buti pa ang kahoy, pag inanay, tapos na…
tayo kasi, hindi eh. paulit-ulet tayong susubok,
para lang malaman kung kakayanin tayong sagipin
nung taong nagmamalasakit masagip lang tayo sa anay….